disappointment

all these things about ndp training being tough, all the i-really-wanna-quit-np-or-i-am-gonna-die attitude. i've had enough man. c'mon la. this isnt something that difficult to decide on. if you cant cope with the training, or rather put it this way, you dont have the commitment or dont even bother to turn up for training, then i rather not have you in the parade itself. whats the point of dwelling in something which you are not interested in?? giving all kinds of excuses from headache to leg pain. head to toe. yeah right. it seems that your best friends and you have such good telepathy that you guys can be sick altogether at the same time. (6 together & same sickness) wow. -clap- just give you a hint: if you wanna fake, at least say different illnesses. cos to me, your world only has one disease-stomachache.

its really disappointing at the rate you guys are going. i'm not saying its wrong to be unsure of your drills, its perfectly fine. but now, the thing is that, i dont see any effort put in. (this only applys to certain people. i know some are tryin' real hard) the truth is, your dont know how lucky you are to be marching in with your sqdmates. this is a real time to bond. its a good time to build up your unity. but i guess, your are not aware of these. i'm just totally disguested by the attitude your are giving. i'm tryin' my best not to make the trainings that boring and tough for you guys, but whats the point? i dont see any point of doing these. since no one appreciates, well, i just have to say, i think i've given up. its not worthy. your wanting to study, wanting to rest. what about me? i'm not that brainy after all?! i want to study. i too need to mug for my o levels. i need a rest too. yet, so what? i'm not given extra time to do all these stuffs as well. if any of your are actually reading this, and if you arent happy with the things ive said, you can just confront me in school whatsoever. i dont give a damn. about this. anymore. enough is enough.

for you: feel isolated? never. you know we will be here for you right? its their lost for not picking you. i dont care. in or not, the both of us will still find time to spend with you. alright? -cheers-