I should update my blog

yes indeed. i should update my blog. its been quite sometime since ive blogged in anything here. well, the week passed fruitfully (i hope) was kind of busy. my life revolved round cca and hols homework. got a crack from them with class chalet. it turned out good suprisingly. glad i've went for it. (: come to think of it, i was still dreading over it last week. well. yeah. i guess it was the company which does it. i'm starting to love my classmates more and more. its cool "hanky-pankying" with sharon, missing prisca, "bbq-ing" and suanning seow, disagreeing with yulian, chilling out with heather, bye-ing to charrisa, of cos, talking out with euodia. (shes really cool) so, overall, i've really enjoyed myself i suppose.

lots of work undone. its sunday. a few more hours to chiong my stuffs. gosh. i can go for mission impossible 3 i guess. so much work to do.

english comphre
maths tys
lit essay
biology
chemistry
social studies essay
chinese oral


its good to know she has got someone out there for her. its good to hear she has got a new start, and found the person shes been looking for. i'm glad. really glad. of cos, i will think about stuffs in the past occasionally, those were happy moments i guess. but nevertheless, i wish her all the best in everything. good luck girl! ;)

anyway, happy birthday to you!!! my gosh. 19 ah! thats cool. two years and you can watch R(A) movies as what you've said. (stop bragging) May you enjoy every moment of your time with the cute meee and brudderhood as companions -laughs- and hey you, 19 already, stop being so childish alright??!! its no use trying to provoke me by saying you are much taller.. (i dont give a damn) -evil laughter-

trippin' along

Yeppity yep, excuse the rushed, kancheong nature of this post. In about 11 hours i shall be on my way to malaysia with vannie and keng! Hooray! :) No kiasu parents and bratty kids to worry about for them, cause its the off-peak season. (week days) Yup. And i just started packing about 10 mins ago while they started last night. (em bei, there got shampoo anot?) i cant seem to find my discman, vcds and homework -screams- (promised vannie's mum that we would be mugging also.) actually, i dont know what to bring...

kit list:
1. sufficient clothings
2. toothbrush
3. towel
4. snacks (munch while having our movie marathon at night)
5. swim suit
6. handphone charger
7. cards
8. bible (can i not do quiet time just for three nights? -whines-)
9. harry potter books
10. facial wash
11. discman
12. vcds
13. h o m e w o r k (sigh. hope i'll never remember)

and so far, ive only laid out my towel and cards. (not even in a bag. cos i cant seem to find any. three of us are having the same problem.) Which means im pretty screwed. I'll just dump everything into my bag(hopefully i'll find one) and hope its enough to last four days.

*ps: prisca wants a purple and pink shirt, with some gold/brown flickers to compete with rajah's sari.

the glitter on the Cimmerian void outside was just cheerless.

up, up, in the sky so high. stars shining there so bright.

why is it that elation and happiness, is always so fleeting? maybe you knew what you had wanted, but yet, time and circumstance never congealed anything into fruition. the slippery sands shifts and disappears between the cracks of your fingers and down into the earth.

a candle sits in the middle of an outstretched palm. and its a lonely one, with the wax burned and melted down into a gooey mess. the blackened wick is gnarled with wasted hope. radiance, of the shimmering golden hope, sitting in the center of power; now covered in anonymity.

and you knew the face that was so fleeting. pass on by, and pass you by. you are just the passerby. like watching a scene from a bench in a public park, you're existing in a vacuum. you wanted to grasp it. but it was either your strength, or circumstance, or both, that failed you. but you couldn't decide which one it was.

no matter. you know the outcome of it anyway.

and they say that the midnight hour is the perfect time of day.

where all shadows melt away, giving rise to shades of shame and insanity that are flesh wound mementos burned into troglodytic eyes.

you walk, but you need no visuals anymore.

seeing is deceiving.

i played doctor for a day.

pushed my eyes in and splayed open my heart today.

but all i found

was three pounds of dust

and a dead bug.

there wasn't much room for thoughts anyway

because i made an indecision

about everything

and nothing.

there is a virus. somewhere.

microcosm of something diabolic. (i think.)

i thought i could trust someone.

someone who can save me.

i turned and see a report of someone

having a condition worse than mine.

i stretched out my arms for her.

she swept them away, and walked off.

time never saves. it festers.

till your mind collapses in gangrene.

so i stitched everything up.

and turned my face away.

Pottermania

Im a self-confessed harry potter fan.

Arrived home feeling great while grooving to Perfect 10 hits and all psyched up to complete a whole bunch of other school's prelim questions.
Spotted my copy of "Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone" on the desk which came slipping out from my ah-lian bag (classmates should know). Dang. Even though the cover wasnt that fascinating. but thoughts came running through my mind again. though i've read it many times, i just cant resist the temptation. i wanna finish up the first book fast so i can move on to the rest. its just staring at me! it was staring at me!! Lord of the Rings was never THAT tempting.

Oh hell, what could it hurt to read just one chapter?
Harry's chosen as the Seeker of the Gryffindor team in the game of Quidditch against Slytherin. Professor McGonagall gave Harry the best broom ever. (they even have models) 'A Nimbus Two Thousand'. Harry was doing well in his training, and Wood was determined to clinch the Quidditch Cup this year. Screw maths, im hooked.
Read read read read, its 10.35pm and im at chapter 11, and still going strong.

*distant voices of all the teachers in the world* "Get your priorities straight Beishan!" Too late. Rowling's got me under her spell.

Spell of the Day:
Expecto Patronum
Useful spell to drive off Dementors, but extremely difficult to master. You have to think of an extremely happy thought with immense concentration, while uttering out the spell with much conviction. If successful, your Patronus would emerge and drive the Dementor at hand away. A Patronus differs among individuals: Harry's Patronus takes the form of a stag, in the representation of his father, who could turn into a stag when he was alive.

blissful time. there he goes yakking again:

all you people gorging yourselves at fullerton hotel, splurging from far east till city link, enjoying candlelight dinners on top of the city, remember that somewhere in Changi Point (and Tekong, and Jurong, and Pasir Lebar..) people are suffering, training so that you can enjoy such lovely experiences! -wistful- But it also reminds us: that someday, someday, we shalt emerge triumphant from the cesspool, and we shalt savour these simple (and expensive) pleasures, and drink deeply from life's cup! (slurp)


well. -shrugs- naggy.