Who you wanna be ah? -ARGIVE WARRIOR!!!

i'm back from su foc!!! yeah!! the camp was totally awesome!! i guess its the second best camp i've ever gone to. man, i love argive!!! i really wanna thank Daddy God answering my prayers, placing me into the best group, with the best campers and best leaders. even though none of my np frends were in the same grp as me, i never felt a second lonely in the camp. not even one! and i'm dead serious! i really really enjoyed a hell load! haha.

we played so many games during the camp and they are all so original! cos i havent played any of the games before. one of the memorable ones was the one where our whole grp had to stand on one of those long slim pri sch canteen benches and try to shift ourselves from one end to another. it was so funny cos when we try to cross over with that 5cm width, many were kind of unbalanced especially those big size ones and everyone had to pull them back. haha. also, there was a mass pointing third finger, doing the wtf sign while playing, cos we were not allowed to speak and could only use gestures, eye contact to shift. and all the guys were like doing all sorts of nonsense to grab each other's attention. hahaha. damn funny!! another one was butter hill. its like a big mat was laid over this really steep hill and butter, flour were spreaded onto the mat. and we had to think of ways to climb up the hill. it was really challenging cos the hill was very steep and added on butter's slippery, so we really had a hard time doing that. but it was really fun. so we made up this clap called the butter clap. it goes like *clap* *smells armpit* "butter". hahaha. damn cute. other than games, we also had cheers and argive's cheer rocks la!!! we won the best cheer. haha. yesh!!!

i'm lovin' it! :)

busy weesy

alright people! i know i havent been faithful to my blog, but you see, i'm like super busy (i suppose) nowadays with i-dont-know-what. just busy. haha. so, what have this small girl been up to these days?

oh well, i have been working for my dad in his office doing some data entry accountance thingy. kinda cool la. (at least i get paid 30 bucks a day) everyone tells me its a boring job but i cant find any sign of boredom in it at all!! seriously, i really enjoy working for my dad. what can beat getting to sit down in front of the computer with speed faster than lightning (just kidding) in an air-conditioned room on a comfy arm chair, keying in datas while waiting for spongebob game to load?! its fantastic! plus, i get paid! woohoo!! Life totally rocks! :)

so where do you go after work? well, i had cg last fri evening at ngee ann poly and it was totally awesome. i must say NP B caregroup rock my socks!! haha. serious! no joke man. dont mess with us, cos you aint cool enough. yay baby.. hahaha! alright. i mean Han's really good in a way he doesnt make cg something i dread coming, and the pple in my cg rocks too! well who can resist bok, sam and ding's laughter which shakes the earth, guan being sucha sweet little babe, brendan's just-bully-me-cos-i-have-a-bully-able-face face, larry's gayness, tim's wonderous stories.. i mean come on, with such great pple in the cg, how can you not come for cg!??!?! hahaha. oh well, anyway, we had prata for supper after that at some coffeeshop, and manz, it was super fun or super fun? not only the company was good, the food rocks too man! bok, guan, sam, xueting and i were laughing non-stop. we shared stories on our experiences with abnormal teachers and how ridiculous things can get when we dont hand in our work. it was a total blast man!

after prata session, i went k-box. it was darn cool la! never know k-box can be such a cool place. hahaha. laughed at how my brother-in-law sang this hokkien song. it was really fun la. reached home around 2.30am.

then came saturday, went jamming with cg. damn cool! haha. trooped down to third place only to find out the jamming room was under renovation. so we went down to potong pasir instead. bok was one kind cute. she was sulking on the train and claimed if she couldnt get to eat m&n, she wont smile. and sure enough, she seemed alright after buying m&n chocolate. haha. so adorable! so jamming was great! brendan taught me the basics of playing drums. so cool!! laughs. however, i forgot to teach bok and ding keyboard cos we were all too engrossed. bok, ding and sam sang really well! serious! damn nice. haha.

we went brendan's place for dinner after that. it was fun. had yummy high class maggie mee while commenting stuffs abt the show 'the champion'. and we concluded xueting looks like jingwen's little sister (the one on wheelchair), sam looks like the brother and yongjie looks like the dad who always beats himself. haha. and they said i look like that evil girl just becos i have the same fringe!! man.. of everyone.. haha. but anyway, it was really funny and we all had a great time (i suppose). haha.

so its the 26th of april, which means a week more and i'll be off for my foc! wheeeee!!!! cant wait man. oh in case your dont get what foc means, it actually stands for freshmen orientation camp. its an orientation camp for all new intakes in ngee ann poly. yup! really exciting., 4 days 3 night. how cool man. and coming up next, its the sports camp in the week after foc. and lsct camp on the folllowing week. damn cool!! ahhh!! such an exciting week ahead and i cant wait!! yipeee!! cant believe school's finally starting. i've been waiting all my life for this moment. oh mans. and i cant wait for lessons to start. nurse beishan. haha! what a joke. but oh well, daddy's holding on to all these and yes, its definitely gonna be blessed! Amen! :))

however, i need to go shopping desperately! got to get FBT shorts, running shoes, chulks, t-shirts, jeans, more t-shirts, proper school bag, and even more t-shirts. yeah. so anyone out there willing to shop with me??? give me a call!! haha.

On More Stylish, Eloquent Posts

I should really start sounding more mature, witty, and all things more literary inclined when i blog. So will beishan please come up to the podium and raise her right hand?

The Blogger's Oath
I, loyal blogger of NCC,
shall solemnly vow not to sound simplistic,
not to succumb to the temptation of plain sounding posts.
I shall endeavour to use imagery, irony, aliteration and all things
chim-sounding.
I shall post in a tone that is strongly biased, yet subtle enough to put
it across in a stinging witty sort of way (huh?)
And i shall solemnly adhere to the Blogger's Code of Conduct:
To not be overly self-indulgent,
To give juicy anecdotes about life and bak kua,
To give snide yet complimentary remarks about friends,
To use expletives when i'm extremely angry,
And to allow you, beloved reader, to have a more fulfilling reading experience.

So help me.

Well, looks like i have a long way to go before i get the "mature" part down pat, but hey, its a start.

i think i'm falling down.
down down down
with a bad case of love.
love love love.
i think i'm falling for you.
you you you.
i think i'm falling in love.



pug jelly

biomedical

or nursing course

indecisive me.




i guess i shld just throw rubber and decide on either one. Daddy God will make the best out of it lar. be it staring at cells till the cows come home or cleanning sh*t 24-7.... haha!!

i'm looking for a rainbow
somwhere in the sky
wishing for a shooting star
just for you and i
i dream of pretty flowers
a garden of my own
a place where i could find my dreams
a place to call my home

i'm waiting for a miracle
a reason to believe
searching for an answer
a destiny for me
i hope for rain and sunshine
and laughter all the time
i pray that God would colour
this empty world of mine

if only to Him you'ld turn your eyes
you'ld find the faith to realize

for He is my life, He is my soul
i know that God is in control
no matter what the world may be
He's there for you and me
for He is my life, He is my soul
i know that God is in control
'cos all that He does
is a testimony
of His love

dont leave now
not yet
they're words i
regret
and i'm sorry
somehow
i only
wanted to make you proud

if i could only let you know
i'd give up everything i own
for just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldnt do
i could not let it pass me by
i make every sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twice

when you told me
i froze
it still echoes
in my soul
please forgive me
if i didnt say
i love you
every single day

if i could only let you know
i'd give up everything i own
for just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldnt do
i could not let it pass me by
i make every sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twice

nobody told me we only get one chance
i didnt know that our tide would turn so fast
why we have to say goodbye i dont understand

if i could only let you know
i'd give up everything i own
for just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldnt do
i could not let it pass me by
i make every sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice

i could not let it pass me by
nothing i give to sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twice

we'll meet in another life
if only we could live twice

like the flowers
that bloom every spring
You'll never leave
You'll never leave me
like the breath
that You breathe on the trees
You covered me
with Your life

during the dark times
when the bitter winter bites
You caved in
and lit up my life

i love You, Jesus
You sacrificed for me
upon that cross
that's covered with my sins
i love You, Jesus
You gave Your life for me
so i may say
i am free

because of You
i can breathe

last night's bible study was good.

we're living in the end times. i get damn kan chiong everytime someone tells me that we're the end times generation. there's like so many things i wanna do before i die. like get a bike license, seeing my parents accept Christ, pinch my nephew until he faints, burp 10 times in a row, meet my hunky husband and many many more. and i always have this funny imagination that God will come like just before i graduate, then i would have spent 4 years studying and then die without a degree. and like how God will come when i'm on a roller coaster that's about to go down the slope, then everything will just stop. or like how God will come after we've just set up the fire for bbq. i hope God chooses a good time, for me at least. haha. better not come when i'm bathing.

if jesus is gonna come soon, then i just wont get a chance to lie in the coffin. its a good thing also la. however, the case of tsunami is super saddening la. i really feel damn sad for those people who are affected. i went to help pack the clothings for the tsunami pple in some association yst and gave all my money in my wallet last night for the tsunami victims. its not much but how else can i help? after bs, weiling, christine and i were discussing which areas we can help when we go on the mission trip with church. and they already condemned the thought of me going over to those places as a counsellor. they were saying i'll probably just bombard them with lame jokes. oh well. christine was saying she can be a translator for indonesians. and we were asking her how to translate "wah lau" and she said she dont know. so i told her to say "my father" cos "wah lau" is my father. okie never mind. thats not the point. so you see. the devil is playing a mean game here, but if you believe in Christ, thousands may fall on your right and ten thousands may fall on your left, but you, who are in Christ, will not fall.

i really praise God for friends around me who can really help me with my problems. and i finally understand no matter how big or what problem i face, i just have to lay them down at Jesus's feet and look upon that cross, He will bring me through. salvation is grace by faith. therefore, for those of you who are constantly facing problems which you dont know how to solve, trust God and have faith in Him that He will clear them all for you. for God said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5b)

and i will never have to worry about the future. for i know who holds tomorrow, and i all know who holds my hand. for jeremish 29:11 says "For I know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord, plans to proper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." therefore, every tomorrow will be a better tomorrow than the last tomorrow, so i dont have to care whats gonna happen the next sec, the next min. as long as Jesus is there for me, its gonna be the greatest moment of all. :) Praise Jesus!

when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you above the storm
father you are king above the flood
i will be still
know you are god

HAVE YOU EVER.. 1. Kissed your cousin: i doubt so.
2. Ran away: sports day counted?
3. Pictured your yes: how do you picture yes?
5. Broken someone's heart: nah. i kinda handle things with care.
6. Been in love: every moment. hard to say no when Jesus is around.
7. Cried when someone died: yeah.
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: guess so.
9. Broken a bone: nah. (take more calcium!)
10. Done something embarrassing: please, every single day.
11. Lied: yeah
12. Cried in school: nope. whatever for?
13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: whats the diff?
15. Girls or Guys: bisexual??
16. Flowers or Candy: candy
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: oh well it depends..
18. Blondes or Brunettes: its the hair dye that matters .
19. Bitchy or Slutty: well i prefer beachy
20. Tall or Short: t-a-l-l lar!!! (duhhhh)
21. Pants or Shorts: pants
22. Night or Day: day
23. What do you notice first: notice what??
24. Last Person You Slow Danced With: dont have the blood for dancing. ?
25. Worst Question To Ask: what's your height?
26. Showered: ah hur.
27. Stepped outside: jump can?
28. Took a bath: yah la! told you what.
29. Romantic memory: i dont know if things are romantic.
30. Your Good Luck Charm: no need for such stuffs when everything's good with Jesus.
31. Person You Hate Most: Mr. S.A.Tan
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: knowing Jesus and saved by Him.
33. On your table: food food and more food?
34. Picture on your desktop: a mad fellow digging his nose.
35. Color: pencil??
36. Movie: those that make me laugh throughout
37. Artist or band: band. yeah. teamwork.
38. Car: no i prefer bikes
39. Ice Cream: mango!!!
40. Drinks: mountain dew with sprite with lemon tea with ribena
41. Food: everything that's define as PROPER food.
42. Makes You Laugh: myself
43. Makes You Smile: Jeses
44. Can Make You Feel Better: Jesus
45. Has A Crush On You: well anyone has the potential to since i'm so small and can be easily crushed
46: Do You Have A Crush On Someone: too small. cant crush anyone.
47. Who Has It Easier: has what easier?
48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: bald man with really weird beard like what pringles man has.

the little venture played pool for the first time in my whole life today. it was so scary!!!! when i entered the place, i felt super weird. like as if entering the place was a crime. serious. i was really really uncomfortable in that place. however, thanks to dearest cg pals, i managed to play the game fine enough that the stick was still in a piece. truthfully, it was quite fun la. haha. and i must say sven is super pro!! gosh. best man. so we had a game. with larry on my team vs timothy and pui ser. thanks to larry, we didnt lose that badly la. hahha. praise God. okie. so we actually hopped into town after that and wei jian and i happily went around as "asher-wanna be". finding pple to target on and play tricks. haha. its was really funny la. though we didnt get to meet that pringles man again. but we met osama-sorts of pple. with really bushy beard. and somehow, wei jian loves to target old, bald men. hahah. tsk. i just realised that its 2005 this saturday!! its so fast la. time flies man. still remember how i used to dread o's. and hoping it would end. and before i even know, its already 2005!! gosh. this is really scary. okie. so 2005. hmm. new year resolutions. first. i would want to ask for a million's million's million's million's million wishes and blessings from God this coming year and of cos, He's gonna give me many more millions than those! haha. amen amen. secondly, i would want to be a great blessing to those pple around me. bringing them joy, happiness and peace!! yes. so i would like to go on a mission trip if possible. serious! not kidding man. to help spread the gospel and the goodness of my DADDY!!! yipee! :) yup yup. wait a min. i dont think im' speaking of my resolutions but more of wishes. haha. but its okie. its my blog what!!! whats your problem huh? i like to go out of point, canont is it? -hur!- hahhaa. err. ok. tahts all folks! :D so, alright. back to the thing. em thirdly. hopefully my parents would accept Christ and be saved. i really really hope for this and im' still trusting God for working this out. and i know it WILL happen. yes. next, i would want to grow more in the love of God. yes. and perhaps get down to earth and start to be more serious. (so stop me from crapping alright). well , actually i'll leave that to God la. He knows whats best for me. :) and also to stay or leave d.a.r.e, its one matter which has been in my mind for teh past few weeks. seriously speaking. though i've joined d.a.r.e for just a short period of time, i must say i'm really attached to the ministry. it has really changed my life so much and it really impacted my life-loads. i've been praying abt this and i've received answers from Him in many ways. yet, i shant decide with my own will, cos i'm leaving this totally unto Him. for i only desire to please and serve Him in whichever area He wants me to. be it in the youth ministry, campus or music ministry, which i really hope i can get in as keyboardist. (though i'm like super lousy. but, grace grace la. i can do it! haha) so i'm like totally trusting Him in this and i will go where He sends me. school's starting soon. so sh0uld i or should i not go for first three mths? (as proper student-cos i'm definitely gonan crash JCs) HAHA. hmmm... or should i just work? nono. this is not a trick question. help me out peeps!!! (soon if possible. cos school's starting in a week's time!!) hah. oh, cg meeting this sat at teacher joy's place. hmm. cant wait! its 2005!! okok. i'm crazy. I will go where you send me. Jesus take me now i am yours. i am yours.

the blessed soul you know what? God is good. He is so good. i must say evangelion camp was so fun! my life really changed so much after this camp. He's presence was so strong that i felt that nothing else really matters when i'm so deeply loved by Him. :) i love Jesus!!! yoohoo!! hallelujah. and after the camp. i felt really really blessed. this is the first time i've felt so blessed to have both my parents around to care for me and love me. not only that, i'm blessed to have two elder sis and bro, who love me so so much. praise God for them. i've never knew how blessed it was to have two loving parents around. compared to many many friends of mine, i'm the almighty! and thank God for them. i love you dad! i love you mum! -screams- moreover, because of evangelion, i got really close to christine and weiling. i need to say, they are the BEST roommates ever!! super power man! christine. you are very very very funny. thank God for your blur-ness and your cuteness. and not forgetting your cup noodles! yipee. they rock. serious. and i do not blame the curry flavour one though it caused my lips to swell. haha. and weiling. that talk with you was really really good. cant believe we've shared so many personal stuffs! many of which even me myself never thought i would share them with someone one day. praise god for you two dearies. =) i love your! laughs. also, DHL rocks man!!! we are like the most happening pple around in teenzeal! haha. its amazing how God works. bringing pple of different backgrounds together. from strangers to aquintances to friends who are so close that we cannot part!! haha. and its only within the short four days that our bonds and made stronger. praise god! the mini care grp meeting at 4am on the last night was great. (or should i say morning) the games of mafia, truth or truth, tao pok-ing were so fun. not forgetting the inner secrets we shared. it was great. and did i mention the services were great too? the presence of God was so strong everyone couldnt help but cry out. it was really touching. :) and today's service was not that bad. some ang moh came to preach. on my way home, i was feeling really down. thinking its impossible for that to happen. however, solid rock magazine elightened me. the article on stress-free. it said heavenly father knows what i need. how do i not get them? however, He says we are not to get them the way the world gets them, but to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to me. thats so true! so i should stop worrying about it. yup. so i guess if God thinks this is the best for me, He will give it to me. and i dont have to grab any chances or do anything, just relax one corner and stone. God will do the job. praise God. i shared that with weiling, and she's freed! haha. i cant wait for caregrp outing tmr. yipeee!! laughs. Life is good with Jesus. :) accidently in love.

a renewed life

okie CG lunch at seoul garden was great man! wheee! not only the food rocks, the company was good. had a great time playing mafia. such a lame game. btw, pris and christine. your egg-y soup was darn gross. i guess its good to eat and laugh yourself out once in a while especially in this peroid of stressful month. wait. i think i sound very studious. okie. make this right. I'VE BEEN SLACKING FOR THE PAST WEEK. i am feeling so restless everyday. and i've grown fatter!! damn.. so pissed. when i stood on the weighing scale, it showed "lorry not allowed". no. i'm just kidding. not that bad. but i hit 44.5kg with my pinafore on and 44kg without pinafore. which means my pinafore is 0.5kg. i have no idea why it is so darn heavy, perhaps its my wallet. wait. I HAVE NO MONEY. heavy = coins. light = notes. get it get it? :p i'm really broke. have been eating and eating and eating these few days. sakae, seoul garden, pizza hut. damn. i'm so fat! argh.

side-note: i'm having geography paper tmr and now i'm online. tsk tsk tsk. now you get what i mean by feeling not stress at all? but ang moh wee is worse. she said she's reading 8-days now. geez. but some pple are just smart. dont study still can score. -turns green-

i can wait for o's to be over. i've said this many many times and i really mean it!! i can't wait! church camp church camp church camp! WHEEEE!!! anyway, oh yes. my pimple is giving me so much pain. i have these really HUGE acne and its so gross. errrghhh. i curse you pimple in Jesus name! yipee! haha. i'm healed. :)

anyway, i think babies make you go stupid. my sis have been taking care of my baby nephew till to the extent of beoming moron. let me explain

conversation: my sis vs her friend C

friend C: eh May, how do you spell 'whether' ah? i want the 'whether or not i can make it' the 'whether', not the 'weather' as in got rain or not...is it the same 'whether'? its not right?

sis: i think its a different 'whether'. errr...the 'whether' you want is the 'whether can or cannot' the 'whether' right?

friend C: ya...

Sis: W-E-A-T-H-E-R

friend C: ok...thank you ah.


now do you get what i mean by becoming stupid? i am not gonna be a baby-sitter and yes, i will not.

unconditional love

i know i know. dear readers must be fuming up with all the "why-arent-you-mugging-now?" mindset. i know i'm supposed to be mugging, but its the weekend! (SO? O'Level is still on!!) yeah. but you see. i'm rather happy now that most of the core subjects are over. such as Literature. i nearly died while studying it. while actually, i didnt study hard enough. i didnt really study for my subjects, not till the night before. (i snoozed for six hours in the afternoon. and watched tv for two hours in the night) yeah. truthfully. i can only study in the night. i suspect i'm nocturnal. well anyway, i wanna speak of my testimony to everyone.

Had my social studies paper a few days ago. and the night before, i was really at the extreme of giving up the subject(studying all sec 3 and 4 chpts), when this plague caught my eye. it says "the Joy of the Lord is my strength". and i suddenly thought of what pastor prince said. "When He has blessed you once, He will continue to." yeah and thats true. so i prayed and asked for God's guidance and He told me to study Switzeland. I trusted Him and guess what. Switzeland came out! Praise God! before entering the hall, i was telling wosssta to moan for me if switzeland doesnt come out, but my Father is faithful, and i managed to answer the questions. :) grace grace. He's so awesome.

same for Lit. i studied only the themes and one of the questions matched what i've studied. i must say God is so good. He's so awesome. so magnificant. so wonderful. so glorious! I love Jesus! weeee! even though i dont deserve good grades, He is willing to give them to me. so to all O' level-ers, dont give up yea? trust God and He will give it to you. and thats no folks!

anyway, i guess i'm rather upset about the fact i'm not going for CI course. i would love to, but well.. it just cant be help. never would i want to fight for a place with the rest of my sqdmates and get all upset and stuffs. its a foolish thing to do. but nevertheless, i think its a pity i wasnt given a chance to serve the unit. sigh. this is sad. i cant believe this is over for me. np's out of my life. this subject which revolved around my life for four whole years, and now its time to part. i cant help but feel a tinge of jealousy in my heart. jealous of those whom are still enjoying the fun of it. jealous of those who can actually continue this amazing journey. however, even if its the end for me, i'll never forget those wonderful times i had with my sqdmates, seniors, juniors and many important people in my life, whom we've come to know of each other, through this core. Thank you pple, for making my life more worthwhile.

many things have happened for the past weeks. exams, family... even so, i chose to put them aside and ignore them. i am not escaping, i just feel all these should be settled and looked into after o's. this is not the time. you can call me selfish, but i just dont want to let those who cares for me down. more importantly, myself. after the many trails in life, i've grown up and matured. i've come to realise that people come and go. it's nothing to be sad about. that's life.

human beings are ugly. two faced. dont deny it. everyone is. dont tell me you have never smiled at someone and in actual fact, you have been gossiping or had said something nasty behind his or her back. its funny to see how humans struggle to get "accepted" by other humans, but not God- who is much greater than any living or non living thing on earth. of course. everyone wants fame. wealth. recognition. it is proven that our lives revolve around nothing but papers. papers and more papers. in case you still do not get what i mean, let me explain it. our life started off with a piece of paper-birthcert. when we get older, and graduate from a pre-school, they give you no diapers but a piece of paper. more and more students are ending their lives because of their results. their "worse than so and so" results. students kill their brain cells and parents spend money on tuitions for excellent results. and what do you get in the end? leaving certs or report book - paper. everywhere on the streets we see people crying cos they are unemployed. families broken. because the bread-winner doesnt have "enough papers" to be qualified for the jobs. when people get married. what proves of this marriage is a piece of paper. when couples divorce, similarly, it becomes a fact when a piece of paper is produced. and you die, your family gets a peice of paper. again. so you see? what are we living for? without papers, this world would be nothing. absolutely nothing. this is how shallow human beings are. naive and silly. we work and work all day to get recognised, and in the end, nothing actually benefits us. as we work and work, we often neglect those who truely cares for us. we never learn how to look back and see things from another point of view. and often regret when it's too late. this is one mistake i've learned never to make again.

thank you for bearing with my stubborness and demanding character all these while. i know theres nothing i can do to change the fact that i have lost you. in my deepest desire, i really enjoyed the times we had, the bonds we made, the memories we shared. even if you dont believe me anymore, gonna talk to me no more, just wanna say i've always regarded you as someone important in my life. and that will never change. take care pal.


friends are friends forever
if the Lord's the Lord of them
and a friend will not say never
cos' the welcome will not end
though its hard to let you go
in the Father's hands we know
that a lifetime's not too long
to live as Friends.

tell me whats wrong with society.
when everywhere i look i see.
young girls dying to be on tv
wont stop till they've reached their dreams.
diet pills. surgery.
photoshop pictures in magazines
telling them how they should be.
it doesnt make sense to me!

i guess things arent how they used to be.
there are no more normal families.
parents act like enermies
making kids feel like its world war 3.
no one cares.
no one's there.
i think we are all just too damn busy
and money's our first priority

is everybody going crazy?
is anybody gonna save me?
can anybody tell me what's going on
tell me what's going on?
if you open your eyes.
you'll see that something is wrong.

is everybody going crazy?
is everybody going crazy?

tell me whats wrong with society
when everywhere i look i see
rich guys driving big SUV's
when kids are starving in the streets.

no one cares.

no one likes to share.

first of all, i didnt attend teenzeal on sat. boohoo!!! cos i couldnt make it. sigh. but nevertheless, service on sunday was great!! God's yoke is easy and His burden is light!! Amen! this made studying for o's a much easier task because i know it is easy and it is light! yeap yeap. More importantly, i am gonna get excellent results, as Jesus is the one taking the exam, not me! Good news!!

Alright guys. i've made up my mind. no JC for first three mths. gonna work for desiree's mum at sentosa. i guess its gonna be great!! yipee!! along the clean white shore.. under coconut trees.. with cool breeeze.. hot babes in bikini and cool dudes walking here and there.. beautiful work of God!! gonna work in a cafe. she mentioned something about frying burgers, making ice kachang, training dolphins!! so cool yea!! hoorey! =) i cant wait. i cant wait!!

Singapore idol is getting stupid. it is obvious Singapore is not voting for talents!! i think christopher should get voted out instead of david. the fact is chris cant really sing though i think he's kind of cute =x err. but thats not the point. the point is this is not man hunt lar! you muct have the voice and a pleasant face. well anyway, i thought it was funny when gurmit asked dick lee who should be the one voted out-chris or david. dick's not straight and gurmit is obviously putting him in a situation. LOL! i'll be watching singapore idol as long as olinda is still in the competition. she's good.

oh yeah. just came back from grapevine. was mugging there with heather and char. it was okie after all. cant really concentrate with that cheena-come-african music they were playing (though i brought my own music) my parents were so supportive of me going out to mug. they were even suggesting different suitable places. Laughs. Thank God for my parents. they are so adorable! x) okie. i really have to get down to serious mugging. i've been playing around too much. yes. they were just saying o' level is in 19 days time!! gosh gosh. its so fast. anyway, it's good results coming! my results are in His hands! grace gracee! =)


would you believe me if i said
that we are the ones who can make the change
in the world today?
would you believe me if i said
that all of your dreams in your heart
can come true today?
would you believe me if i said
that life could be all that
you want it to be today?

would you believe me if i said
that God can make miracles happen today?
would you believe me if i said
that you dont need to wait for the answers before
you step out in faith?
would you believe me if i said
that nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE..
for God ?

and if i had wings i would fly
cos all that i need.. You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'll still hold on
cause You're all that I believe
and the one that created me
JESUS bacause of You..
i'm free!

just live your life
with God inside
you wont regret
one moment of it
and give all that you can
for God..
for God..

and if i had wings i would fly
cause all that i need.. You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'll still hold on
cause You're all that i believe
and the one that created me
JESUS because of You..
i'm free!

i really should update my blog - (char stop bugging me! lol)

prelims is finally over and o level is in one month's time!! gosh. so fast so fast so fast! but still, i know Daddy is gonna be with me (He was right beside me during my prelims), so there is nothing to fear!! yes yes. Praise Daddy for the results, although i can only make to CJC or SRJC? (hey! beishan dont complain!) so there goes my SAJC.. sigh. nevermind. this is ONLY prelims. i still have my o levels!! yup! I am gonna make it there! (i wish) however, i'm going Australia. so i guess its gonna be an empty dream?! well anyway, pple, go watch "one missed call"!!! its good! not at all scary but at least it has a decent plot. cos you see, japanese or korean horror movies dont usually have a plot. their style is to have ghosts popping out here and there and a sudden ending which makes no sense. but this time round its different!! so i recommend you guys to go watch it!!!

anyway, i've found out many of my classmates are heading to SR. pple like heather, yulian, char, euodia, meiyen? quite a no. eh?? not bad not bad. well, its not a bad place after all. its near, thus cut down transport fee.. i can walk to school everyday! Laughs. CJ's not bad too. a good place to slack for 3 months. and get pregnant. nah! i'm just kiddin' haha. see la heather! influenced me! aiyo.. ..

gosh. i can't wait for o's to be over. there's so much to be done. i'm gonna go wild wild wet with sharon. shop for prom with euodia. stay in sentosa with her. go beach with her. our malaysia trip. kaladais gathering. church camp. work!! theres so much to look forward to. oh man. this is bad. yes. i'm gettin' a job. i doubt i'm going JC for first three mths. or maybe i am. i dont know!! arghhh.

oh, i wanan congrat vanny and PC for being chosen as the "white mice" for the Hep. B experiment. You guys are SOOOO lucky. FREE blood test man! haha. oh yeah. talking abt them, i really enjoyed the lantern festival celebration with you guys, meishi and jinling that night. it was so cool! haha. and it was really fun even though what PC spat out after the "fuzzy monkey" game was really gross. haha. oh, PC and vanny are going for the Dec CI course!! yeah!! really happy for vanny as she has always wanted to serve as CI. good for you vanny. i would love to come back too. but i guess i just dont have the chance. kind of sad. unless i can serve through the intranet! haha. crap. so good luck PC and vanny. work for the unit! the unit needs you! :)

prelims in a week's time. subjects yet to be covered:

- Literature (6 stories. swaddled lump of flesh)
- Chemistry (4 Chpts. )
- Biolody (8 Chpts- I HATE INHERIDITY. who cares abt X or Y chromosomes)
- Math
- Add-math - guess i'm giving up on this.
- Geography (4 whole chapters. seem little yea? -AS IF)
- Social studies ( Sec 3 & 4)

Conclusion: I'M SO GONNA BE DEAD. i guess many of us are going to breakdown very soon. be it mentally or emotionally. mugging and mugging and mugging. so, let us free ourselves from reality for a few mins..

Main reason why it is not the student's fault if he fails:

A YEAR HAS ONLY 365 DAYS!!!

let us look deeper on why 365 days are not sufficient:

1. There are 52 Sundays in a year and you know Sundays ARE for rest.
No. of days left: 313

2. Summer holidays. well this doesnt really apply to S'pore, well maybe it does. Since its all year round, and the weather if so hot, how to study?? Anyway, take it for maybe 50 days.
No. of days left: 263

3. 8 hours daily sleep, which means there goes 130 days.
No. of days left: 141

4. 1 hour daily play - good for health. 15 days gone.
No. of days left: 126

5. 2 hours daily for food and other delicacies (that includes proper chewing and swallowing) which costs 30 days.
No. of days left: 96

6. 1 hour daily to excercise our mouths. we must learn to be sociable mah. so, 15 days.
No. of days left: 81

7. Examination days. at least 35 days per year.
No. of days left: 46

8. March, June, September, December and other festivals holidays - takes up 40 days
No. of days left: 6

9. For sickness, even if you are superman.. at least 3 days
No. of days left: 3

10. Movies and functions: 2 days
No. of days left: 1

11. That one day left is your birthday! How can you study on your b'day?
No. of days left: 0

Therefore, how can your blame students when they fail their exams? NO TIME TO STUDY WHAT!!

okie. back to reality. ha. think this is pretty cool. Anyway, no matter what. we are gonna survive. its just prelims la. only prelims. (awww. i'm lying) God is here for us. theres nothing more we can ask for.
okay! that's it. I WILL SURVIVE!! yes through God's mercy and grace, i know i will. i will make it.

P.S: peeps. i'm kinda stressed up. thus if i diao you in school, ignore you, beat you up, step on your foot, punch you in the face, stuff waste paper into your mouth, scream at you, poke you with a pencil, knock you out with my books, give you rejected face.. please do not be offended. and i'm very sorry yup. and don't worry if i look as if i'm gonna commit suicide, cos i will not. =)


sometimes i feel so weird
i even freak myself out
i laugh myself to sleep
it's my lullaby

always wondering what all the implications are
always questioning how all the mazes connect

left. hanging. on the string. again.
known. yet unknown.
state of mind. your mind. your thoughts.
regrets. here? now? when?
how? can you please tell me.

don't cry. breathe.
don't sleep. dream.
don't ask. feel.

go away.

It's my birthday!! yipeee. The most awaited day in the whole year other than christmas. Was woken up by the birthday message from Lean may at 12 midnight sharp. Haha. Thanx gal! Well, great. since i slept from 7pm to 12 midnight on tuesday, i only managed to fall asleep around 4.30am. WHOA. and guess what, i turned out to be a panda this morning. gosh. but who cares. haha.

Anyway, a big big thank you for all friends out there! yup! everything was great! But of cos, i would like to mention a few in particular:

1. KALADAIS- Thanx for the wonderful dinner, rounds of fuzzy monkey game, we can really stuff man. haha. also not forgetting the self-obsessed shots taking, hilarious "lemon tree" performance. HAHA. You guys are great!

2. WOSSSTA- The celebration in the canteen was really surprising! Never thought you guys would have planned such things. so touched! Laughs. Thanx for the cake. (both the big one and the small slice) tasted good. i love the strawberry. =)

3. Brudderhood- Thanx so much for rushing back from camp to spend the day with me. Thanx for the effort of trying to bake a cake, though it was err. . . well. nevertheless, i appreciate it. yup! it was really sweet of your to do that. heex. oh! and the dedication on perfect 10. haha.

4. Lean May, Suying, Xiao Ting, Jaslyn, Ruth, Andy, Wayne, Yibin sir, Berlinda, Cheryl, Jasmine, Rachel, Jamie, Pris, Vanny, Meishi, Euodia, Limin, Eugene, Allan, Lionel, Ming Sheng.. and many more. i cant remember. i'm sorry! haha. but yeah. thanx alot for those super sweet messages and wishes. -smiles-

Also, thanx for the prezzies, the hand shakes, greetings.. Love ya peeps. Praise the Lord!